“I do not understand what I do.
For what I want to do
I do not do, but what
I hate I do.”
Romans 7:15 (NIV)
There is a small bowl full of candy corn sitting
on my coffee table. It’s almost always there. I keep it as a reminder of
something that happened to me as a small child and as a reminder of my behavior
as an adult.
I remember it like it was yesterday. My parents
played cards with several couples and we had gone with them to the home of a
family we had not met before. As we were sitting on their sofa in the living
room, we spotted a bowl of candy corn on the coffee table. That was a delicacy
to us and one that we seldom had at our house.
The daughter of this family frowned as she watched
us dip into the bowl again and again. We truly were not trying to be greedy; we
simply knew that we would probably not get another opportunity to eat candy
corn for a long time.
We must have eaten almost all the sweet candy
because she suddenly grabbed the bowl and shouted to her parents in the other
room: “Those kids are eating ALL the candy! By the handfuls, Mom! It’s almost
gone!” and gave us a look of ‘what is wrong with you’ that mortified us all.
I remember thinking as my face flushed with
embarrassment that I would never treat anyone like that – ever.
Fast forward to my being a parent and buying my
children a package of 12 juice boxes. I had just enough money to get them and
told my kids to make them last all week.
When I came in the kitchen about an hour later and
saw all 12 empty boxes, I blew up. “You kids drank ALL the juices at one time! Every
single one! Now it’s all gone!” and gave them the ‘what is wrong with you’
look. I am sure they were mortified.
Suddenly, I
was not looking at 12 empty juice boxes but rather at a nearly empty bowl of
candy corn and I could feel the sting of hurtful words and the weight of
embarrassment.
The very thing I hate, I end up doing. That’s what
Paul is saying in Romans 7:15. I know what is right. I know what I should do.
But instead, I do the very thing that I hate.
Reading further in verses 18 and 19 of Romans,
Paul states that he, too, has the desire to do what is good and right but he
just doesn’t do it. Even Paul struggled with the sinful nature that urges us to
ignore the right thing to do and instead to do whatever we want.
There is an ongoing battle between our sinful
natures and God’s will for our lives.
How thankful I am for the cross and for a Savior whose grace and mercy are
mine when I ask for forgiveness and another opportunity to be Jesus to the
world.
Let us keep on praying, confessing our mistakes
and trying again. He who is faithful will never leave us. And His grace covers
candy corn and juice boxes.
Father, how many times have I said I would
never treat someone a certain way, and yet I have. Forgive me and help me to
focus on you and your will. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
R.A.P. it up
. . .
Reflect
- Have you ever seen or overheard something and thought “I would never do that” but later found yourself doing the very thing you said you would never do?
Application
- Find something, like my bowl of candy corn, to place in your home as a reminder of Romans 7:15.
- When you find yourself, as Paul did, doing the opposite of what you want to do, ask the Lord for forgiveness and ask the Holy Spirit to redirect you to God’s will.
Power Verses
- Romans 7:15 (NIV) “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”
- Romans 12:9 (NIV) “Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.”
- Romans 7:18 -19 (NIV) “. . . For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do – this I keep on doing.”
- James 4:17 (NIV) “Anyone, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn’t do it, sins.”
- Philippians 4:13 (NIV) “I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
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